Hopeful Escape from Escapism

 Sometimes you keep messing up with yourself, on and on.. repeatedly. You know what you are doing is not right, but you can't resist. Afterall sin is sweeter. Sometimes it could be almost impossible to come out of the vicious cycle of bad habits.

But finally a day comes when you realise, you cannot let that happen to yourself anymore. That is when you want to take charge of situation. When you cannot let yourself ruin yourself anymore.

Sooner or later (not too late) you have to realise what you really want, what is going to stay forever, and what is temporary fake happiness.

And when that day comes you will be ready to take all measures to make it possible and you will be eagerly waiting for fresh morning.

Let Everything Happen to You

Let everything happen to you

Beauty and terror

Just keep going

No feeling is final

- Rainer Maria Rilke

PS: came across this beautiful thought couldn't miss to document.

Airflow and Growing up a Child

Watching your processes is like watching your baby grow.

In beginning like a new born there are lot of troubles, with scheduling errors (equivalent to sleep cycle), inputs (equivalent to feeding) etc.

Then there are random unseen issues that keep occuring. Some one will touch the cluster resources or your kid suddenly developed colic.

Once they(airflow and baby) are settled and you are used to, you can't appreciate it immediately. 

Then one day you look back that your processes have run seamlessly for months now.. looking at those so many continuous greens gives you a realisation and pleasure, similar to realising suddenly that ohh your baby grew up..

Drawing boundaries is never easy

Last post I mentioned about the so called life lessons, where people suggest to accept life gracefully. To be more specific not to play victim card, as it can be more harmful than helpful; we should not try to gather sympathy and so on.

But how do we know while accepting the life and what it is getting us in to.. we don't over do. I just don't want to keep on accepting everything life is getting me in to.

Is there any award I am going to get for being brave, and making all battles around me as my own personal battles. I will not question the benefits one may get for being weaker.

Other than few words of appreciation, what else do I get for being brave. I did get peace of mind, no doubt, for accepting the situations as is. But physically and and in some sense mentally too, I am stretching myself.

How does one draw the boundary between accepting life and putting foot down/playing victim card/cribbing?


PS: After reading the post I realised, at the moment I am already well beyond the other side of boundary. 

Perspectives

What if two people with very extremely connected lives have extremely opposite perspectives of a situation. Suppose this situation is a major problem for one: for the other person it is just the way of life, with nothing abnormal in it.

From one's perspective every one does it. From other's perspective why should one do it?

Both one and other, have people around them who agree with their perspectives. There is apparently no good or bad.

How to find peace in this situation?

I have recently watched some videos on the theme of accepting life gracefully. They are nice, however not very natural to follow.  And thes one can face is, feeling strong disconnection with other (most likely temporary, but not a good thing).

Yet to find a perfect way to find peace with contradicting perspectives.